Few months after passing out, lady L (suspected bad girl that wanted my stay in rivers) had her birthday which i ordered a portrait of her as a gift to her, on receiving this, she called and thanked as she was happy and excited, saying it her first big birthday gift from a guy and all that.
Fast forward to few weeks later, she had changed, her calls were on the low, it was now like me doing the chasing. I had thought she wasn't too fine and had some personal issues to deal with but later discovered she was alright as my instinct tells me she only wanted me do the chasing.
This continued for some weeks till i gave myself some sense and decided to stop calls and all form of communication till date. (2 months now).
She never bothered to call nor message as we both went silent, and i wasn't willing to be the one to break the silence.
Fast forward to last week, after about 2 months+, i posted a picture on FB where i was chilling in a cozy environment around town, few hours later, i got her text which tead ""her account number asking me to please send her money, thanks baby"" I guess she must have seen my late post, then I replied to the message telling her her message to me must have been a mistake perhaps meant for someone else and that ended the conversation as she never replied till date.
My problem now is ... I still feel for her, as much as i try to let go of her, snub her and all the silent stuff, i see her in my dreams, (i never believed such happens only thought its in movies) it's more like there haven't been rest for me lately, even whenever I'm with my new GF i subconsciously picture her, her thoughts pop my mind every now and then.
Boss i need to move on from this girl but my heart says NO! it's proving difficult for me, i need your help, not finding it funny again, sometimes i feel i could be under a spell. Its not her pussy i miss, I'm getting loads of pussies over here, I don't know but i sure know I'm not fine and something has to be done. Thanks.
Ps: lady A (her roommate) has been of good conduct as ever, i had followed your counsel of going for the one i love less, but boss to be honest, its like I'm faking my emotions for her, thats how i feel anytime, like I'm trying so hard to develop this feeling.